m a tt

i just went out and tanned my head

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 22:55:22 GMT

lately i have been having dreams involving the death of loved ones and a constant driving fear and forces me to progress further and further down a dark road with some unknown assailant chasing me. I dont nessesarily feel threatened by the chase itself but the impending doom that circles me like a blanket. their is no room to breathe no escape and then i wake up. i deserve a cookie.

mattw.
i hope he loves you like i did.
-thebled

im going to let it ring out this time

Fri, 11 May 2007 22:55:37 GMT

coachella round 2. best event yet. ive got bigger fish to fry now.

summer has arrived and i could not be more prepared for this action. i will let the sun come down across my face and not weigh me down, i will be looking forward; give me the strength to stand upright and i will not let you down.

mattw.

when i do wrong i am with god.....she thought.
brighteyes

i wrote you this I O U today.

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 08:42:32 GMT

im lost entirely and completely. which was left and what wrong, i stumble on words like chairs in a crowded room of strangers all sharing in the same problems and venting on a group of the understanding for a minute but then... it all gets scrambled outside of those doors. the miles you wear on your shoes guide your character, never afraid of today plagued by what is to become your yet unrealized future. i can feel it drawing out my life grabbing me by the throat and draging me over and through the country without letting me miss one bump.

the stars are out tonight.
and you're the brightest one shining in my sky.
its like every wish i ever made ....
-the ataris

mattw.

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 20:20:34 GMT

its a shame really the last of the magi were destroyed by the blades of a vengeful people. every good deed must go punished, leave no heroes in this crowd. the sickness of your life catches up to you quickly and your conscience makes a conscious effort at forgetting. this is the end of an era, evolution, the hand of god has made its mark upon you.

mattw.
"your eyes tell the story.." - coheed.

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 00:45:16 GMT

there must be somewhere that ciggerettes burn through the night....
take me there.
-thursday - autumn leaves revisited

mattw.

chicago here i come

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 02:45:38 GMT

go big or go home.

mattw.

"you and me dancing in the rain..."
- rufio - perhaps i suppose

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 07:41:31 GMT

he wore the colors black and blue to remind them of the pain he suffered.

mattw.

in motion ...

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 10:37:28 GMT

when the music stops it gets bad.

so ive moved in with a one mr. david glenn spurlock very exciting times these are. life is huge.

mattw.

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 10:45:59 GMT

i love my ipod.

mattw

FREE FALL to 5000ft.

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 03:32:04 GMT

so today we went skydiving. probably the most incredible thing ive ever done in my entire life it was amazing. it was so good we went twice. sometimes falling is nice.

mattw.

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 22:47:42 GMT

motion sickness

mattw.

drugs will get you no where

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 22:45:51 GMT

so in less than 4 days i will be completing my tasc diversion program through the state of arizona. until then i have twenty-five (25) hours of AA to complete by friday morning, on the plus side though i have about 30$ and a quarter of a tank of gas. This is going to be a very very long week.

mattw.

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 21:23:34 GMT

sounds good, since im right we pull the car over to the side of the road because its the perfect time of year to walk. its so cold but we feel nothing because the chemicals reacting inside of us are generating enough heat to make this bareable. its like getting lost in your own neighborhood, your mind cant find the door only windows with glass to keep us inside. take back no just go back.

mattw.

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 20:44:23 GMT

when i woke up i was on the highway, highway, highway.

cali here we come again.

mattw.

Location - I

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 05:37:51 GMT

so basically ive found that i dont like girls, i hate "dating", im not really all that interested in sex, and boredom has gotten the best of me. lately ive just gone into work and asked to work because im bored of the same ol same ol type shit. i cant seem to find anyone that im like truelly interested in. im thinking about becoming a paramedic for a lil bit of time, i turn 21 in july and i can get all the courses completed by the time i turn 21 so it would be no biggie. you get to work as many hours as you like and do whatever so i might do that just for fun to make a lil bit of cash for a while. i still dont know what im doing here, febuary 10th is soon approaching and i dont know whats going to be different on that day but im almost positive im gunna jump back into the old way for a while and see what happens worry free. im kinda tired and im gunna pay off my debt completely in the next two weeks and that is kind of exciting. im pretty excited let me tell yah. i dont know. game on.

mattw.

the art of burning bridges

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 09:04:32 GMT

something so common its undiscovered. Pink belts made of fiber that bind us to the ground. Am I spoiling your birthday? Ok. Because your killing my buzz I just called to tell you im treating your memory with anything I can, I think i would be better in a coma than destroying my...
This is the sound of the streetlights reflecting off of your car and you'd never get this way. its the middle of the night when everything seems alright again, here we go again. A thousand tiny lies for us to ignore because there is something in your voice that's so traumatic i think i hear the helicopters gaining ground. The head drops with your mouth open fighting to stay alive, red eyes and sore feet the smoke escapes to the air only some things are so lucky. Chasing the devil by attempting to control your breathing the heart monitor sighs the doctors find a cure for a disease that fails to exist.

mattw.

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 08:48:35 GMT

VEDA need i say more.

mattw.

reality's coming through

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 00:33:48 GMT

and for the first time we can finally agree that a thread has been weaved through all that we know and even that which we dont yet comprehend. were are all connected and this music will be the single key to my life that can break me with a single note. you cant hide forever.

mattw.

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 22:37:14 GMT

shit FUCK damn ROCK AND ROLL!!!

mattw.

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 03:33:24 GMT

when its so cold outside that your breathing increases with your heartbeat, when the wind hits you your body quivers and forces you huddle into smaller corners than you would ever imagine, this winter...

mattw.

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 21:20:41 GMT

i wonder where you are sometimes, if your happy, if things are working out. I hope you never have to worry again. Does the sunshine still make you smile when you feel warm and close your eyes and face it, dont ever let yourself go.

Winter brings the storms, and i feel like im standing in the woods and im not sure which way leads out and the snow is starting to fall and its so cold outside and i dont know what im going to do but i start walking and...

mattw.

.default.

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 19:25:00 GMT

ask and ye' shall recieve; we'll see about this one. the haze that weighs down over california had just enough preasure on it to force us out one more time. take me away.

mattw.

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 02:38:53 GMT

its like the surprise at the bottom of the cereal box, no no i think its much better than that.

mattw.

every hour, every day

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 03:51:18 GMT

i havent got a prayer.

mattw.

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 17:57:10 GMT

its an attack on humanity, a drop of water in a bucket. Game On.

mattw.