urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye m a tt m a tt 2007-08-02T22:55:22Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:71210 2007-08-02T22:55:22Z 2007-08-02T22:55:22Z lately i have been having dreams involving the death of loved ones and a constant driving fear and forces me to progress further and further down a dark road with some unknown assailant chasing me. I dont nessesarily feel threatened by the chase itself but the impending doom that circles me like a blanket. their is no room to breathe no escape and then i wake up. i deserve a cookie.<br /><br />mattw.<br />i hope he loves you like i did. <br /> -thebled urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:71023 2007-05-11T22:55:37Z 2007-05-11T22:55:37Z coachella round 2. best event yet. ive got bigger fish to fry now.<br /><br />summer has arrived and i could not be more prepared for this action. i will let the sun come down across my face and not weigh me down, i will be looking forward; give me the strength to stand upright and i will not let you down.<br /><br />mattw.<br /><br />when i do wrong i am with god.....she thought.<br />brighteyes urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:70731 2006-10-02T08:42:32Z 2006-10-02T08:42:32Z arcade fire - rebellion (lies) im lost entirely and completely. which was left and what wrong, i stumble on words like chairs in a crowded room of strangers all sharing in the same problems and venting on a group of the understanding for a minute but then... it all gets scrambled outside of those doors. the miles you wear on your shoes guide your character, never afraid of today plagued by what is to become your yet unrealized future. i can feel it drawing out my life grabbing me by the throat and draging me over and through the country without letting me miss one bump.<br /><br /><br /><br />the stars are out tonight.<br />and you're the brightest one shining in my sky.<br />its like every wish i ever made ....<br /> -the ataris<br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:70479 2006-06-06T20:20:34Z 2006-06-06T20:20:34Z its a shame really the last of the magi were destroyed by the blades of a vengeful people. every good deed must go punished, leave no heroes in this crowd. the sickness of your life catches up to you quickly and your conscience makes a conscious effort at forgetting. this is the end of an era, evolution, the hand of god has made its mark upon you. <br /><br />mattw.<br />"your eyes tell the story.." - coheed. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:70168 2006-04-19T00:45:16Z 2006-04-19T00:45:16Z there must be somewhere that ciggerettes burn through the night....<br /> take me there.<br />-thursday - autumn leaves revisited<br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:69924 2006-03-29T02:45:38Z 2006-03-29T02:45:38Z go big or go home.<br /><br />mattw.<br /><br />"you and me dancing in the rain..."<br /> - rufio - perhaps i suppose urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:69819 2006-03-05T07:41:31Z 2006-03-05T07:41:31Z tv. he wore the colors black and blue to remind them of the pain he suffered.<br /><br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:69496 2006-03-02T10:37:28Z 2006-03-02T10:37:28Z fairview chinese new year when the music stops it gets bad.<br /><br /><br />so ive moved in with a one mr. david glenn spurlock very exciting times these are. life is huge.<br /><br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:69343 2006-03-01T10:45:59Z 2006-03-01T10:45:59Z i love my ipod.<br /><br />mattw urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:69070 2006-02-13T03:32:04Z 2006-02-13T03:32:04Z so today we went skydiving. probably the most incredible thing ive ever done in my entire life it was amazing. it was so good we went twice. sometimes falling is nice.<br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:68613 2006-02-11T22:47:42Z 2006-02-11T22:47:42Z <i> motion sickness </i><br /><br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:68524 2006-02-06T22:45:51Z 2006-02-06T22:45:51Z so in less than 4 days i will be completing my tasc diversion program through the state of arizona. until then i have twenty-five (25) hours of AA to complete by friday morning, on the plus side though i have about 30$ and a quarter of a tank of gas. This is going to be a very very long week. <br /><br /><br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:68210 2005-12-22T21:23:34Z 2005-12-22T21:23:34Z sounds good, since im right we pull the car over to the side of the road because its the perfect time of year to walk. its so cold but we feel nothing because the chemicals reacting inside of us are generating enough heat to make this bareable. its like getting lost in your own neighborhood, your mind cant find the door only windows with glass to keep us inside. take back no just go back.<br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:68050 2005-12-14T20:44:23Z 2005-12-14T20:44:23Z when i woke up i was on the highway, highway, highway.<br /><br />cali here we come again.<br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:67739 2005-12-07T05:37:51Z 2005-12-07T05:37:51Z so basically ive found that i dont like girls, i hate "dating", im not really all that interested in sex, and boredom has gotten the best of me. lately ive just gone into work and asked to work because im bored of the same ol same ol type shit. i cant seem to find anyone that im like truelly interested in. im thinking about becoming a paramedic for a lil bit of time, i turn 21 in july and i can get all the courses completed by the time i turn 21 so it would be no biggie. you get to work as many hours as you like and do whatever so i might do that just for fun to make a lil bit of cash for a while. i still dont know what im doing here, febuary 10th is soon approaching and i dont know whats going to be different on that day but im almost positive im gunna jump back into the old way for a while and see what happens worry free. im kinda tired and im gunna pay off my debt completely in the next two weeks and that is kind of exciting. im pretty excited let me tell yah. i dont know. game on.<br /><br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:67556 2005-11-28T09:04:32Z 2005-11-28T09:49:53Z something so common its undiscovered. Pink belts made of fiber that bind us to the ground. Am I spoiling your birthday? Ok. Because your killing my buzz I just called to tell you im treating your memory with anything I can, I think i would be better in a coma than destroying my...<br />This is the sound of the streetlights reflecting off of your car and you'd never get this way. its the middle of the night when everything seems alright again, here we go again. A thousand tiny lies for us to ignore because there is something in your voice that's so traumatic i think i hear the helicopters gaining ground. The head drops with your mouth open fighting to stay alive, red eyes and sore feet the smoke escapes to the air only some things are so lucky. Chasing the devil by attempting to control your breathing the heart monitor sighs the doctors find a cure for a disease that fails to exist.<br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:67158 2005-11-21T08:48:35Z 2005-11-21T08:48:35Z VEDA need i say more.<br /><br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:66905 2005-11-21T00:33:48Z 2005-11-21T00:33:48Z hot rod circuit - reality's coming through and for the first time we can finally agree that a thread has been weaved through all that we know and even that which we dont yet comprehend. were are all connected and this music will be the single key to my life that can break me with a single note. you cant hide forever.<br /><br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:66761 2005-11-08T22:37:14Z 2005-11-08T22:37:14Z facing new york shit FUCK damn ROCK AND ROLL!!!<br /><br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:66368 2005-11-07T03:33:24Z 2005-11-07T03:33:24Z when its so cold outside that your breathing increases with your heartbeat, when the wind hits you your body quivers and forces you huddle into smaller corners than you would ever imagine, this winter... <br /><br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:66237 2005-10-25T21:20:41Z 2005-10-25T21:20:41Z i wonder where you are sometimes, if your happy, if things are working out. I hope you never have to worry again. Does the sunshine still make you smile when you feel warm and close your eyes and face it, dont ever let yourself go. <br /><br />Winter brings the storms, and i feel like im standing in the woods and im not sure which way leads out and the snow is starting to fall and its so cold outside and i dont know what im going to do but i start walking and...<br /><br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:65943 2005-10-24T19:25:00Z 2005-10-24T19:25:00Z ask and ye' shall recieve; we'll see about this one. the haze that weighs down over california had just enough preasure on it to force us out one more time. take me away. <br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:65740 2005-10-19T02:38:53Z 2005-10-19T02:38:53Z its like the surprise at the bottom of the cereal box, no no i think its much better than that.<br /><br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:65377 2005-10-16T03:51:18Z 2005-10-16T03:51:18Z i havent got a prayer.<br /><br />mattw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:justsaygoodbye:65078 2005-10-15T17:57:10Z 2005-10-15T17:57:10Z its an attack on humanity, a drop of water in a bucket. Game On.<br /><br /><br />mattw.